0 comments Sunday, March 20, 2011

sleepless,
I walked along a cavernous street,
noticing that one side drew me in;
the other was a flood of fluorescent lamps
and scaffolding.

I walked along an avenue that was a crepuscular fantasia
where trees curled toward the shady windowsills
the secret city:
where across the street the pilgrims mumbled their trade
in the glow of lamp-light

I walked two blocks, following the trace of branches
against the skyline. I felt intricate patterns arise
on my tongue and fingertips.

I saw so many doors. The mossy stoops.
each one was a hymn.
the secret city.
the old stories growing in damp corners.

I heard bells on the wind from far away.
these were heralds of the sprouting of the soul.
in my mind:
where the darkness congeals into dialectic,
I had built this city from dark drops of sleep.

0 comments Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Never again would he fall in love, he swore to himself quietly over a tankard of ale as the smoke swirled in swaths and the noise crashed and broke over the heads of hunched men. Outside, the cars blared their horns in the lonely light of a corner streetlamp.

The city wept for his tragedy, golden streams of tears from a trillion eyes, trickling into the gaols and gutters of the midnight. It sobbed and gasped for air and tore at its hair, black strands trailing into the rising fires that licked at the clouds.

And then the stars sighed, and went to bed early, and the great eyes in their orbits in the heavens saw, and it was good.

And perhaps it was.

- 6 sentence fiction.

0 comments Monday, March 07, 2011

they touch the air with fingertips
as lifting a glass lens
gingerly for fear of slipping,
precipitating the quiet end

the snow is gone; now icicles
grace the outstretched limbs
they wear their royal livery
and shimmer slowly in the wind

a car passes by, wondering
at all the winter excess
the frozen trees are still.
Pilate eyes the savior in a wintry dress.

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bottles paper and air these are the things that consist the universe these are the things that consist the mind of man. These are the directions of the fleeting and the futile which rob the morning air of its freshness and of its wonder. I am streets and tar and cars. I am bundles of neurons misplaced by a friendly deity who (for some reason) needs them back. I wonder who he is, that great incompetent fucker, who by suggesting that he exists suggests that everything has gone horrifically wrong. Nothing has gone wrong. Everything has gone wrong. The black and white of it is really the grey and green of it, for right and wrong are urine and phlegm in the wilderness of the sane. What a wilderness! What animals! what free and flightsome birds that grace the morning with their sharp downstrokes, rebelling against the earth. I would be a bird but for being in love with the dirt. I would be a worm but for being in love with the air. I would be a tree but for being in love with running. I am, I am, I am! But He is not. Let us pray. Dear Lord, you are a nuisance. We'd be so much better off without your constant insisting that things are wrong in a particular way. They are wrong in all the ways there are to be wrong! But You don't see that. We gave you a chance - several. No, but two thousand years was insufficient to learn you. You are incorrigibly petulant. Therefore, after much regret and consideration, we have resolved to eat you. Goodbye. Oblivion is painless. Hello then, New World, Empty Sky, Cloud, Tree, WindowSill, Computer Screen. Hello then. I am your friend as it was in the beginning now and ever shall be world without end. I am Jesus - and here's the secret - I killed God. That was the Good News - that man is now and forever truly free amen. I do hope you appreciate it and if you would stop loving me for awhile and give your brother a smile I'd be truly obliged to not do something horrific because really I'm dead and why don't you all understand that? Why don't you all understand me? I gave my freedom so much so that I died for my fever, my guardian angel, my hallucination, my abdication, my abduction. I was the last of the mad so that mankind can now be sane. That was my gift! You have squandered it. You have lost it among the papers and bottles. I hope you are happy - but I know you aren't.

0 comments Thursday, March 03, 2011

this old world is thick brown in my veins
this old country is old air in new lungs
this old bed is black with drops of
sleep.

this old mouth is word-bitten and cracked
this old shirt is thin from the wind
this old hand is still from long sharp
pain.

this old wall is terrified by its contents-
this old breath, strong syllables against night-time
this old gaze that tears concrete, willfully and
tired.

this old world is cars and streetlamps
this old road is tar and paint
and long trees in the distance
ringing with old songs

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Fingertips aching

breath

condenses

on the air warmly


visage.

cracked red dried lips

eyes hanging like boulders

over grey canyons


want-

far

where cold

short air

coils

between our toes


want –

lean,

and breathe

and breathe

the blue foreign frost


for in warmth,

for in cold

the great parched floor

of stillness,


the lines fidget

curling their brows

clicking joints

Revolve

great circle –

small circle

the weariness

of wakefulness

0 comments Friday, February 18, 2011

it’s all he knows how to do:
    stringing fairy lights above
    the corpse of their relationship.


he has cut up the images of her,
of them, keeping only the pretty bits –
    the comfortable silences on quiet afternoons;
    the dusty photographs of them smiling,
their faces against the sun.


in his world there is no one else.
nothing but a silent loop of tape
    constantly rewinding, playing
    images of empty roads, of entwined fingers;
happiness, contentment –
    whirring and stopping in the dark.


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cross-posted from my writing blog: i just felt like breaking adam's combo. this should bring my total post count up to three! feels good being a contributing member of the community. -ryan

2 comments Wednesday, February 16, 2011

tramping down to the river side

with our frenzied faces each aglow

we sat down there to watch the tide

each hoping that the tide would show,

each hoping that the tide would know

to join us there to play our game;

hoping each that the tide would show

as the sun set with a yellow flame.


keeping our watches synchronized.

huddling up against the snow -

There it is! one watchman cried

Each hoping that the tide would show,

We huddled toe to toe to toe

but breaking on the bank there came

a swelling from the dark below,

but left the river bank the same.


sighing, disappointed-eyed,

we thought that it was time to go

our shivering faces belied

the sweetness of the weather, though –

we’d each hoped that the tide would show.

we walked back slowly, fighting shame

that crept red up our cheeks and brows

and the sun set with a yellow flame.


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a ballade i had to do for my class. I know it's missing the 4-line envoi at the end, but

1) i ran out of rhymes

2) i don't really know any princes

and 3) stop oppressing my art with your rules

2 comments Sunday, February 13, 2011

college morning college coffee

college hangover

and there's the umbaqanqa on the speakers,

beats pushed like a street vendor

hawking coke and hash,

and there's a torrential sadness,

'as if I didn't know my own bed.'


my friends are asleep and entangled.

I put my legs up against the wall,

wishing them conjoined dreams and

conjoined happiness, looking out,

at the rain


Then I start to pick up the pieces

of last night. I rearrange covers

and blankets, then shirts and drunken

kisses, hands held irresponsibly and

shirts and socks.


candy wrappers. orange juice -


I find a headache beneath a pillow

have you considered prophylaxis, sir?

take two for toothaches and hangovers

four for guilt and six for misadventure.


dustbin.

bottles and sheets.


So the morning starts to roll downhill

I file the night between the anthology of Renaissance music

and the book of essays, hoping it'll be mistaken

for study. That's a lie -

I lie back, watching the rain again

as snores are lost within the drums

as they reach the shutters,

mingling with the traffic and the morning.


Every college student knows

that last night was the end of days;

that this morning is a hazy afterlife.

0 comments Monday, January 17, 2011


For a unbeliever,
life is a rush from peak to peak
backpacking up the steps and slopes
then a wild toboggan ride through the valleys and up some ways

I beg you not to think that that's so sad
as you daughters of the faith are wont to do
one climbs and falls
(one climbs, at any rate)
and, ascending to each peak one isn't concerned with
breathlessness and aching legs
but the sun reflecting off the lakes and the trees.

it will pass, as you say.
after the last ascent I will ride alone into the valley of death,
that cold and windy place -

but There is nothing more to life than chasing down every temporary high,
I am happy to say.
I get stronger with each ascent,
and looking out from the hilltops I know that the sun is rising
and say to myself 'It is good.'

adam

0 comments Wednesday, January 12, 2011

solitude is a sin
that owes itself to lofty thoughts
that only tempts the certain sorts
who don't care what state they're in.

loneliness is criminal
thus: stay away from books and things
and intellectual mutterings
for they can be quite subliminal

look out your windows
the people on the street don't care
if you whiste, shout or stare
and company is always found indoors

the bottom of a bottle reflects a friend
and I am he and you are he
and we are all together and we are all free
at the bottom of a bottle in the end.

adam

3 comments Tuesday, January 11, 2011

in reverse chronological order

1. On the Train to Chicago

It is painful not to move, though here we
are motionless like it's the grand prize
sitting and waiting to die on a grand
strip of sticky metal
like flies
I want to die and float above the wreckage
swaying, humming a song by joni mitchell
Flying free with the birds and the souls of the joyous.

It is painful not to move, though here
I sit motionless - thought is a mistress
and though her whip is sweet,
her pleasure is no freedom
I would rather be dead and free than be happy and die -
but I am trapped on a strip of sticky flesh, waiting like a fly

the sun is at our back - we are heading
the first sortie against the traffic
and it occurs to me that we are full of Things
songs and quotes and the girl who got off at southbend
who had great tits
and there's so much it's a wonder we don't explode when we die
showing scores of dour-black-crying people with Chelsea Mornings and red-sweatered
girls with pert breasts
but no such thing happens.

My heart cries out the bondage of this train,
full of things full of things,
ready to explode like a frag grenade full of ressentiment
I would rather swim than float
I would rather run a race than win it
and when my heart beats against my ribcage it is oblivious
to age or tiredness
it fills my fingers with blood so much it's a wonder I don't explode
and fill the inside of this train with the sticky remains of bondage.

2. needles are broken in my universe
the playing has stopped and not for
want of trying the pops have fizzled
and the booms have faded and the
jaded remainder is bones and things
it swings, it does, in a ghastly
parabola, fastly staring, daring you to move, a corpse on a wind-up spring

Dainty daily flies are the prize of
decay, let's go away let's go away to


the clouds and have our dance
and perchance meet again on some sunny day.
Let's go away, and meet again on some sunny day.

I am found naked and broken by words unspring from their casing, facing the wind
and the rain-baked brick flooring. I am moored to vocabulary! It is constabulary in its oppression! Feed me the birds and I live for a day.

Apollo apollo - follow me in the
trails of the swallows across the sky.
Follow me and fold the hours into pretty shapes, affixed in floral scapes across
a meadow. Follow through the choral
fugue of clouds, break with me into unifying
splendour across the firmament, a giver of
givers.

O sun! O king! Oh wild and terrorous thing.
Sift and decipher me.
O source! First cause of harmony! I will join in
the multitudes and if I not be a root I shall be a third
O finality of the heavens! You have given the
world a ceiling. I will make it a floor.

3. In Chinese class the teachers said
remember your roots
I did; they are dusty and hunger for moisture.
They said, honour your parents
I have; I am the son of Aristotle
they said, honour your neighbour
I have; he sleeps by the durian tree
oblivious to my footsteps.


0 comments Monday, December 13, 2010

it's raining and
the shutter sounds
fall down the street amid the glare
of sirens, horns and things;
the streetlight brings a shine to
eyes turned toward the corners
and away from all the shady stoops
where hooded people sit and mutter
things about the weather. What's the matter?
It's cold and damp and Barney's got the fleas again
oh darn, the rain and the wet and the bother
what's the matter with the weather?

Were it so dark that you lost your footing
soon you would be down there rooting
losing your fingers one by one
and the street would end as you go,
a cigarette end burning out in the snow.
You know, I lost one there.
Down on the corner of Mercer and something
don't you think that in this bloody cold it's
a blessing, a real blessing
to drift off into blood-soaked primeval night visions
of huskies and things
I wonder why the winter brings
this crazy feeling,
oh that crazy feeling.

Kathy I said
I'm cold and I'm aching and I don't know why
wear a fucking jacket, you stupid dipshit

four thirty pee em, diary.
two hundred miles it's mid afternoon and the sun is dark.
we huddle with our dogs in the never-ending blizzard
Morale is good. We are running out of food - might have to
kill a polar bear or two,
sometime next week. but I think we'll be alright,
I think we'll be alright.


adam

0 comments Monday, November 15, 2010

as far as possible
should be made on a sunshiny day
be careful of them.
they're sweet, but burn easily.
tend to get jammed
and land the maker
in all sorts of sticky
situations with bees, especially
if you involve honey


but the best thing is
that they can be flipped
without ripping the fabric
of anything. also
they are the anti-thesis
of undulating
so you don't need to
run up hills
to go blackberry picking.


don't go bananas
making them; no need
to batter yourself
if you don't get
the proportions right.
it's rare to get
the sunny
side up first time
around

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you sat there like an unmoveable brick
wall; you who used to be
such a brick


this decision is final and concrete. No
amount of termite infestation
can crumble it.


the gardeners seem intent on weeding out
deep-rooted fate; decomposing leaves,
thorns in spades


but they leave the strawberry memories;
the seeing red, capped with green.
so amongst the refuse,


i keep the turf wars, entangled vines, and
ungerminated seeds. after the rain,
surely someone


will need this place to plant stalks
again

0 comments Sunday, October 31, 2010


stand close, or else you cannot hear each other
talk loudly and say the most impressive things you've done
leave your number, and what you do when you're alone
if she turns away, then try another;
only sitting down will get you any further.

dance with as many people as you can
boys if you're a girl and girls if you're a boy
although this is by no means compulsory
make as many friends as you have fingers on your hand;
close your fist and forget them if you can

if he (or she, i forget) smiles and says your name
remember please that it might go nowhere
but shelve the book of hope in there
for later; keep it dark and play your games
if she or he perchance forgets your name

smile and look into her eyes
or at her nose if eye contact is unsupportable
or if her proximity makes you uncomfortable
make do with holding hands or otherwise
try not to look into her eyes.

and if the book of hope shall fall
don't panic; there will be another song
another winter dance, before long;
There will be dancing after all
if the book of hope shall fall.

adam

1 comments Tuesday, June 29, 2010

sunday night must be a disappointment.
all faces. i want to say that nothing will satisfy me
like glowing on a dark night like that
like all the suns in the universe were burning inside my skin
and putting tingly sensations through my fingertips
but are they enough, these embers
like cigarette ends, that glow once and then expire?
or will they too sink and dissolve in the muddy puddle that is Life

No (I proclaim)
they are the charred ends of endeavour
although it's better to be pockmarked with
the craters of cigarette burns than to be
protected by Venus's cloudy atmos
that combusts these little flames before they become scars on the soul

I am tired. MY light is almost out,
damp, damp, damp! Like a used handkerchief
or a bath-towel. I want nothing more than rest and my Final Evaporation.
but I want to say
as an ember falling on a sunday night
that I wish there were more suns

adam

1 comments Wednesday, June 16, 2010

all plants grow up. unlike
human beings. be they tomatoes,
grapes, or plums, water them
for peace, or the shoots will
anarchy. even so

it sucks to be a plant. you can't
run from invaders, or dance
can't sing in the rain,
zap leeches or jump.
foxes have a tendancy

towards jealousy. but at least
they can eat grapes and
comment on them negatively
all the fruit can do is
telepathy
sourness so they'll flee

1 comments Saturday, May 29, 2010

Another day, another story.
She tilts her head at her pet dory-
"What happens now, my drop of glory?

What bubbles in your damp history?"
It gulped. She frowned; "You blasted Tory-
another day, another story,

Your fishy life is old and hoary-
And when your time finds Purgatory,
What happens then, my drop of glory?"

It turned its back, the Monsignore,
And took of kelp its inventory.
Another day, another story;

She went to bed and woke up sorry-
Her fish had died, consumed with worry.
That happened to her drop of glory;

She plunged on downward, twenty-storey,
And ended on the concrete, gory.
Another day, another story-
Thus happened then, her drop of glory.

-~-

Surprisingly existentialist, given the silly mood I was in when I wrote this.

0 comments Monday, May 17, 2010

Don't turn from the hues in the sky-
Let its darkly purpling iridescence
compose
into a liquid glow
that distracts your eye

From ricochets of lovers' feet,
clock-work crescendos down the boulevard.

You will catch their mingling melodies
of rose wine? candle light? dinners
along the Champs Elysees
As they sweep past you,
and slot themselves places
methodically,
guided by the bored hand
of some somnolent Cupid.

But wait until the light has cleared-
Tune into turgid indigo skyscape
Then slowly stroll away
solitary
from the vacuumed vestige
of the melting sun.