4 comments Wednesday, December 06, 2006

he was walking down the streets in town
nothing alongside, nothing belongside
wearing his clothes and a hat and a frown
dark on the outside, dark on the inside

kicking his feet past the broken glass
nothing alongside, nothing belongside
making his way back home from the mass
dark on the outside, dark on the inside

and all round his eyes, in resplendent disguise
nothing alongside, nothing belongside
naked neon lights and broken docksides
dark on the outside, dark on the inside

it's hell for a man for living alone
nothing alongside, nothing belongside
when the only bells ring atone, atone
dark on the outside, dark on the inside

sunsets in september, snowstorms in spain
nothing alongside, nothing belongside
evenings past loving, evenings past pain
dark on the outside, dark on the inside

back in his bed where the sun don't shine
nothing alongside, nothing belongside
it may be bleak but the world ain't blind
dark on the outside, dark on the inside

and now his body's six feet down
nothing alongside, nothing belongside
wearing his clothes and a hat and a frown
dark on the outside, dark on the inside

2 comments Monday, November 27, 2006

This is war, and we are its children. We are the product of a generation of violence, of meaningless hatred. We are the product of silly sympathies sworn to this prophet or this god. Silly sympathies that divide us against ourselves. 'A house divided against itself cannot stand', a prophet once said. Words 'once said' can never be retracted. Speeches made can never be undone. They have created our fathers - the generation of violence, and we, the children of war.




P.S. tried to connect the ideas to each other, to give it a little flow. But it seems pretty forced at the later stages of the piece. Comment plx.

0 comments Wednesday, November 08, 2006

//the madness of love

dear reader, surely you have read of many foolish men
whom, for a maiden's simple smile, would die and be condemned
and surely you have laughed at them, so lightly sacrificed-
but they who lived the burning blaze- so gladly burned and died.

the face that launched a thousand ships and sacked a city proud
the dainty face before whom all the greatest of men bowed
so, call them foolish now! but ask the countless that are dead
to love and live, the price was death; that price they gladly paid.

Othello closed his open eyes to fall upon his sword,
and Werther never knew another meaning of the word;
oh, pity not those piteous men who lost their minds to love!
no fairer thing to make men mad was giv'n by god above-
yes, madness! love had never claimed to be another thing
but claimed the mind, possessed the soul, enraptured everything.

-~-

keeping in line with the "one post a month" theme heh.

1 comments Sunday, October 15, 2006

i have created a monster behind my eyes
she is on the brink between sleep
and horrible awakeness, aware
of the old skin
crevasses crossed with age.
the toothless face,
terrible! Terrible.

In the air between us are words
none of us want to say
None of us want to look.
we turn away -
avoiding each others'
narrow, harrowed eyes
that are pink with the ghost of tears
and the premonition of anguish.

is this a worm
curled asleep,
as if hiding a phoenix
chasing the wind.

What do we think?

There is a woman there dying and I love her.
She is my grandmother.

1 comments Saturday, October 14, 2006

i removed the tagboard. tagboards worldwide seem to be nonfunctional nowadays, and link instead to cPanel. which prompts for an irritating login everytime i visit. so i removed the tagboard. twice, just to make sure.

2 comments Sunday, October 08, 2006

each line is supposed to be nine iambs, but blogger doesn't format it properly that way, so i've broken them into two sub-lines each.

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at mountain's edge i had my birth-
        a nature-born emissary of rain
and for my water-bringing worth
        was always hearing praising songs, refrains
but past the hills and vales of time,
        no praise i heard from any land i saw
and no more did the stormy clime
        inspire human songs of dread and awe.

in ancient times, far i could see,
        they worshipped day and rightly feared the night
across the plains, and to the sea,
        the gods they had were sun and fire bright
but i begrudged them not the fact-
        the day and dark are nature, my own kin
and they, when by fierce droughts were wracked
        would once again welcome my darkened grin.

but now i drift across the skies,
        and see beneath no longer greenlands home
beneath the realm of stormclouds lies
        vast edifices built of deathly stone
and people shuffle aimlessly,
        while spires strike the god-forsaken sky
and whether rain or not, they flee,
        and leave the grey-grown world outside to die.

and though i am the storm-born wrath-
        i shake with all the might of thundrous zeus-
when men fear not my lightning staff,
        then in this world i know i have no use.

0 comments Sunday, September 10, 2006

love on the wind
laughter in the air

you can tell, can't you?
that i'm from a rich country
because i can romanticize

why else would i
laugh and dance! sing and play!
dance away the dullsome day!
never walk the lonely way!
lose myself, and run away!

so many men, so much wealth
any more
and we'd all be poor

but now while i have the time
to

name things that i cannot see
feel things that i cannot name
imagine things i cannot feel
believe in things i cannot imagine
trust in things i cannot believe
see things i cannot trust

emotion
is a rich man's toy

3 comments Sunday, August 27, 2006

evolution
natural selection
divine intervention
id ego superego
DNA and how you grow
walking upright
spine straight
carved a club
slayed a beast
painted names into rock
held the burning branch
ploughed the land
built a wall
reined the horses
charted the stars
sailed the seas
tamed the hissing steam
harnessed the thunderbolt
split the elements
trapped the sun

why, why why?
why ask what turned monkeys into men

why not ask instead
what turns men into monkeys?

loosed the fury
dropped the bomb
shocked the continents
steelclad monsters of war
pillage and plunder
plotted by omens
ramapged across the plains
besieged and conquered
broke the earth
torched men and homes
painted faces for war
slayed the animal
carved a club
spine straight
walking upright
DNA and how you grow
id ego superego
divine intervention
natural selection
revolution

III
0 comments Thursday, August 17, 2006

i am as a kite, in the swirlstreams a windwaltzing rover
a mothlike destruction- attracted and drawn to my tether
a lord and a master of all that i flit and fly over
but held to the earth by a string of the fates from land under

i am as a fish, in the ocean of purest of azure
dimensionless seas to a naked and natural swimmer
but swimming above, wanly watching the water's edge waver
and looking at shimmering surfaces, filled full of wonder

i am as a man when he tramples and crushes a clover
uncertain if luck will forsake him for his misdemeanour
though while deep in thought, the question i press and i ponder
i stare at the leaves, while ignoring the fresh-blooming flower

if fate is my mistress, then irony must be my lover-
for i cannot love one and not be seduced by the other.

2 comments

coffee in brown spattered trails,
scribbles in ice lemon tea;
lost when inspiration fails,
oh my muse, come back to me.

3 comments Thursday, August 10, 2006

I look for a disc.
it is a round CD
it hides under the tables, in
the drawers like a thief
with me in tow
an alchemist after silver

it is not in the living room, but I am
on the couch, gazing through the doors
at the summer sun of '93
it is evening,

the evening through the dusk-tinted windows draws me out
the moon perched on the housetops
(upon the red roof-tiles)
is adroit the scene of me
on a grassy garden, over
fences; under
gate swings wide open to
reveal a dog and her owner

and the sign of the neighbour which says 'FOR SALE'
and tugs at my arbitrary capacity for unhappiness.

those long ago nights.
long ago-nights. I knew no simple pleasures
only pleasures
only the treasures of beneath the neighbour-trees.
Those long ago-nights.

Too much, i step back in - search again.
My disc if i find it not,
i shall not be so unhappy.



adam

2 comments Saturday, August 05, 2006

has anyone seen a missing muse?
i lost her when i had to leave
my crayon doodlings behind
along with my stuffed dog
and my imaginary friend
i think i threw her into the box
of all the old stuff

but then i didn't know what i had done
and tried instead to have some grownup fun
with things like metaphors and run-on lines
instead of blankly spitting useless rhymes
but in the end- i was unsatisfied
with what those forms had given me to write
so- onwards! to the land of anapest
and there perhaps desire could find some rest

but the fates are ironic and never will give
to a man any feeling of rest or reprieve
so i wrote and i smote and i broke on the shores
the old waves of inspiring had muffled their roars
by the lure of harsh order my heart was deceived
through a strainer of smoke my desires were sieved
so the rain did no longer with torrentous pours
and the flame did no longer consume with its force

but now it's late to mourn my missing muse
i made a choice when i was forced to choose
although, at times, i look and sadly see
the child i was, and could have chose to be.

1 comments Friday, August 04, 2006

what mean i say when love upon my lips
and through thin air the strings of open hearts
proclaim light music faintly harmony
but hearing only feeling does not make
when what is how and everything between
is nothing then behold it as it seems
amidst all noise a signal in the dark
a through the madness paper number guide
show you its purpose to decipher white
and nothing own themselves can tell of things
play tunes and fury blind and rhyme but sound
means what we mean to nothing mean it else
the word no more it means than what it was

1 comments Sunday, July 23, 2006

// A Writer's Blog special

Welcome! Welcome! to the hall of dreams
Behold, where nothing is as it seems!
Here, where time is a capricious thing,
And nothing's impossible to every extreme
Have a go! have fun! by all means, have a fling!
Watch, watch, and wow at the exhibits-
They're sure to keep you in the highest spirits!

Now, ladies and gentlemen, as we advance
Throw to your sinister a curious glance!
Here, a fine specimen- caught at his desk
Reading obsessedly, as though in a trance-
Look at him go! isn't it grotesque
To spend one's life in a flight of fantasy!
I think we'll all agree, 'tis a travesty!

We feed him on stories of unrequited love,
And marvel as he cries to a "Dear God Above"
At times, he's melancholic, at others ablaze,
But never too far from a push to a shove!
Watch! as his spirit nothing can faze!
He'll gnarl and he'll gnash at the slightest provocation
Then fall at a touch into deepest depression-

Welcome! Welcome! to the hall of dreams
Behold, where nothing is as it seems!
Here, where time is a capricious thing
And nothing's impossible to every extreme
Have a go! have fun! by all means, have a fling!
Marvel at the monkeys- but for all of their antics
Please, ladies and germs: don't feed the romantics.

2 comments Wednesday, July 19, 2006

The waters here are clearer than the skies are at home. Walking down an unfamiliar beach, I am faced with the sudden realization that I am alone. Behind me, the crashing surf drags my footprints from the sand and drowns them in the ocean. The breeze blows across the silent sea and echoes in the farthest reaches of the sky beyond. Love seems too big for this little planet; there is no room for it between the sand and the sea. I am alone, and there is no one else on these lonely shores. I have left them all behind.

5 comments Tuesday, July 18, 2006

I wrote this solely for the purpose of infuriating Ryan David.
Inspired muchly by Zhuoyi's 'How to write a poem'. Despite tongue firmly embedded inside cheek, please comment.

Not a Haiku 01

Nothing means
anything


-adam

1 comments Monday, July 17, 2006

It's fashionable to be
    An insomniac.
To have glowering eyes
That speak not
With dancing joy
Or burning hate
But with resentment
Of the rested.

It's fashionable to be
    An insomniac.
To not answer,
To maintain
A cryptic
    enigmatic
        exquisite
            silence.
A silence cries out for an answer.
A silence stings the ears.

It's fashionable to be
    An insomniac.
To be a mind
Trapped in
The body of
A slug.
Wading in
Thick sludge.

It's fashionable to be
    An insomniac
'Cos no one
Can look into
An insomniac's eyes
To see an
Insomniac's soul.

-- 10th July --

AQ
3 comments Thursday, July 13, 2006

I remember a time, not long ago
when water wasn't yet H2O
the air we breathed was clean and bright
and no-one worried about carbon monoxide
oh, it wasn't all too long ago
when grass needn't photosynthesize to grow
"hard" was anything that stubbed your toe
and "accurate" was a master's arrow
but then, things turned to the photon-less side
and once-sweet sugar was acidified
NaCl was the stuff that I cried
for forever was my old playground destroyed.

1 comments Friday, July 07, 2006

Were i but a butterfly,
Fluttering in the breeze,
I'd be an angsty butterfly,
emo, if you'd please.

Were i but a chunk of cheese,
all marbled, green and white,
I'd be a crumbly chunk of cheese,
consumed with wine at night.

Were i but a little kite,
Flying, high and sure,
I'd be a diamond-coloured kite,
They ARE forever, my dear.

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I stand in the sea.
Wave after wave of irredeemable sadness breaks over me,
washing me clean,
Washing my clean, washed corpse to the sand.

I lie on the sand,
and gust after gust of unremiting sand scours my flesh,
leaving my bones clean;
leaving nothing, but clean, white bones.

There i am, There's me,
nothing more than a skeleton of clean, white bones in the sun.

If a little girl were to pick through my bones, i would tell her,
Watch where you step. That's my ribcage.
That's my heart.

0 comments Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Life's just another play,
another telling of each day,
but that doesn't mean there's nothing to say
or nothing to listen to-
You're just another part,
another tale about to start,
just one more easily broken heart,
but you're still you;
Oh, just because it's old,
just because it's all been told,
just because it's always been the same round world
doesn't mean it has to be,
Even though it's all concluded,
just because everything's decided,
doesn't mean that one more of the deluded
has to be me.

It's all a play, nothing more than words and lines,
and the only good actors are the stagehands and the mimes!
It's all a show, another dreamin' swimmin' show
so leave a bang behind before you go!

Everything's a-funny,
the lighting's all screwy,
the big red curtain's gone all awry
hanging by a thread,
But it's still a ways before
the curtain's gonna fall-
and you'd wish you knew whatever's in store
before you're dead!
It's a brimming, bursting,
bubbling boiling brewing,
absolutely revoltingly boring,
but it's the only one-
There's none other like it,
the audience hisses and spits,
all the cast can't fit into their outfits,
but the show goes on!

It's all a game, nothing more than icing on the cake,
nothing more than ripples floating on a lake!
It's all a comedy, this infernal tragedy,
so get on stage and make your big mistake!

-~-

Can someone write a tune to this?

5 comments Thursday, June 15, 2006

Have you heard, have you heard, the cry on the wind?
Borne on the backs of the African hind,
Bellowed in the deep by the big blue whale,
And glittered by glow-worms in the swampy stale?
Told by the toads midst the rustling reeds,
Echoed by earthworms amongst the damp seeds,
Kept by the clam on the bed of the sea,
Yet travelling far to the tops of the trees?
Oh, my dear- have you heard, have you heard?
The laughter light on the wings of the birds-
The chirps of house-martins as they take to wing,
And calls of the crickets as they cavort and sing?
The parrots' prating, while in cages they prance,
The daws and doves, o'er the rooftops they dance,
The young yellow hatchlings sound in bed,
Or salamander's spark in his raiment of red?

The dogs in the kennels all bark out in song,
And chained lions roar out all night long,
While long-bitted horses all neigh out in mirth,
And cats in warm laps purr next to the hearth,
The swallow sails swiftly over the lee,
Sings out to a calf, who returns song with glee-
They laugh, for the tamest animal in existence
Is none other than Messr. Homo Sapiens Sapiens!

3 comments Tuesday, June 13, 2006

my first attempt ever at dactylic meter. somehow so much easier than iambs. i've had the first line in my notebook for a very long time, but most of the rest of it came in a mad flourish of inspiration two nights ago while i waited for sleep to deign to descend upon my restless soul. enjoy.

The Ghosts of Malingerers
We are the ghosts of malingerers. All of us
Sullen and swollen and fridgid with fright.
Permafrost envelopes ice-glazed eyes; do we
Realise that we can't partake of the light?

Apathy, apathy, rhyme of our time; and it
Grows and it flows and it blows through our minds.
Honour and chivalry where have you fled?
Into a box under six feet of lead.


Watch us walk - faint glimmers, ghouls of the night!
Watch as we try not to fall on our faces.
Stumbling, stuttering, seeing - but sightless,
Our rancorous looks are our stone carapaces.

And then comes our solace in times of despair;
To a cold cup of coffee we quickly repair.

-- 11th and 13th June '06 --

2 comments

They say we're mice, God's playthings; we're ants, chaos in the anthill running running away from His Almighty Magnifying Glass. Running, running through His Divinely Ordained Maze, watching whitewashed walls, waiting, waiting. How do we know what makes her come, and what makes her stay?

It's ten thirty, the town is fabulous, sitting in a dusty date of a dusty life, looking for the toilet, looking for the one thing that we think makes us remotely happy. The toilet doors say 'homme' and 'femme' like they're so made for each other, brazen tired faces caught in each other's exaggerated gender, timeless, and I think this is it, this is the torment that defines us. This is what makes April the cruellest. This is the cheese.

They say we're mice, God's playthings; I say you scorched it all. Screw the cheese; eat the walls, eat the mice, eat the maze, eat the white. And when you get to His Infinite Pomposity, eat Him.

1 comments Monday, June 12, 2006

Iambic nonameter. I thought I'd never manage to write one of these, what with my obsessive rhyming and all... but >< here it is.

I don't think the lines will format properly in blogger. As such, I'll just split every nine-stress line into 4- and 5- stress sub-lines.

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i have loved many faces of mortals,
        but none remain that stand in flesh today;
old Helen, Aphrodite, all
        but statues left of beauty passed away.
i know not if i ever shall
        forget the sculpt of their immortal clay-
but Venus stands in armless pall,
        and Helen's rosy cheeks are granite gray.

i loved a spirit, loved a sprite,
        and danced the dance of love amongst the fey-
i waltzed with her who walked in white,
        and gambolled on the greens with gamines gay-
yet all the songs and tales and sights,
        all disappeared before the newborn day,
for faerie love is born of night,
        but man must walk the luminated way.

i loved the gods as selflessly
        as i could bring my mortal self to love,
yet i had waited endlessly
        for signs of love from they who dwell above;
i am a man, admittedly-
        not virtue's pure and unforsaken dove-
that love is unashamedly
        a love that loves me back; for that i strove.

yet i cannot describe in breath
        the love that draws, like fire to the moth;
so let love, let her, look like Death-
        for i would gladly give my soul to both.

2 comments Sunday, June 11, 2006

number 5... you know the drill.

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let him who is filled with devouring rage
who walks with the world-conqueror's visage
and burns all living in his footstep's wake
whose purpose is to destroy, to unmake;
let that man, the avatar of blood and brass
be throned upon the Madness of Flesh.

let him whose vision floods with despair
who searched his life, but found nothing nowhere
yet still searches for darkness in a sea of nothing
and finds not light in the blaze of blinding
let him, who seeks for answers to find
be throned upon the Madness of Mind.

let him whose heart is consumed by envy
whose thirst for more grows never weary
who looked on the gods and praised, cursed, and moaned,
that one day he might be a god alone;
let him, who yearns for power, control,
be throned upon the Madness of Soul.

but he who rages against the world
and writhes, entrapped within its folds;
and who despairs at every endeavour
seeks salvation still with a dying fervor;
and who envies above all, the gods
who walked with them in the pathways of thoughts,
in flesh, mind, and soul, he is not mad;
he is rampant, and from death he has fled.

0 comments Saturday, June 10, 2006

I actually dared to start on an epic poem one day. The first two bits are here, presented for you viewing pleasure. Number four from the backlog bore!

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1.

If one were to look upon the plains
Of ancient, scarce and barren gains
Upon the very road to Rome,
One might find a man far from home
Who left his life long far behind
And wandered as a wanderer blind-

Our Traveller (we shall name him not)
Had long the fount of wisdom sought;
From Life to Death, all puzzled him
And Good was but a vague form, dim
While Evil intrigued not his tired soul
He, who had travelled to the worldly poles

Had seen enough of mice and men
That he preferred to abhor those damned
And seek instead on the nomad's path
Perhaps some Light that had eluded Wrath
And clung to the world, still weakly shining
A fleeting stormcloud's quicksilver lining,

But still that poor man found Wisdom eluded,
By all of the wise, and all the deluded-
No mortal he met knew the secrets of Life,
Nor answered the mysteries of Death and of Strife;
They heard but the call of the end of their days,
Those false pretenders to Gods scorched of clay.

In the beginning, he thought they were true-
But that belief he soon began to rue,
For in all of humanity's fleeting empires
For all their stone walls and towering spires
None lasted long enough in endeavour
To convince that their Truth was a Truth of Forever.

Great cities, old ports, vast armies in line
All wasted away before scything Time;
So he left mankind's world of Temporal defeat,
And sought out the castle of Wisdom's high seat.

2.

So he journeyed forth from his brethren fools,
Cut from the World Tree's strangling noose
He blinded one eye, but now saw with the other
A nightness so black that his soul would have faltered,
If not for a moment of faint, fleeting light
He would have believed that cursed was the Sight.

With wounded of spirit and weakened of step,
That glimmer of light he treasured and kept,
And sought out a path in the cloak-covered dark;
The stones of damnation were never so stark
For he in false blindness could but feel the path,
Which, certain, was uncertainty enough.

At length, the stones grew jagged and sharp,
And hellish fires raged ahead in the Warp;
Before him, enveloped in crimson for blood
Stood the Gates of Hell, forsaken by God,
And upon the harsh steel, on a plague hung up high
Read the words of the Love which desired to Die;

"To Chaos! To Chaos! 'tis a downward slope
That offers no soul a redeeming hope;
E'en if one were to claw his way
Toward the sanguine spills of day,
The pit from which every Man is born
Renders all desperate light forlorn.

To Chaos! To Chaos! None can resist it!
The first step off the precipice steep;
And ever and ever into deepening gloom
Where only Fates and Furies loom,
Thus behold! The fall of Man
To be born and to die in darkness' land."

As the fires raged ever higher and higher,
And Demons whispered of cursed desire,
That wretched counterfeit of the Light so divine
So twisted in form, appearing as such malign
Could claim not his soul- he knew them for damned
And knew that the Fallen false burned in this land;

Nay; light such as this was no angel's kiss,
Would grant our Traveller no aeternal bliss;
So left him in horror the Hell of the Shade
To search for a blessed, benedicted glade.

0 comments Thursday, June 08, 2006

Number three from the old BB! Sorry for pushing your post down, Adam, but eh I've got to clear this backlog. Around 4 more to go, if I actually can bear to put up my prose ><

but enjoy! "some structureless stuff", sanity speaks.

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i detest that falseness of the night.
where i sought sanctuary from the light of day,
i found pale imitate, futile escape.
that i would seek respite from clarity,
ask for the age-old bliss of ignorance
perhaps reflects in the night
some incomprehensible plight
i could never see in plainest light.

when too long the eye of heaven shines upon us men,
he turns as scorching as the very flames of hell
but there are those who welcome that illumination.
they who insist that man deserves a day
without rest or respite, or any pause
they are the priests of false shrines to light,
they are those who killed the lady night.

i now cannot find in any place her scent,
cannot trace her footsteps down any path,
except where she kissed the nightshades.
i lost her in the city of men,
she fled the pitch-black tarred roads
into the moon-lit wilderness.
i thought i found her in the fields
as i lay beneath her twinkling children,
but even there
in the middle of nowhere
the lights found us, and we had to part.

the one place where she could find solace
perhaps, a home too tragic for one as her,
was between the homes of the passed.
there was sacred ground,
and there she gladly made her home.
to the world, she belonged nowhere else.
somewhere nowhere nobody would disturb.

but that meant for me who sought her so dearly
that only in death would i truly find her peace.
so banished from the world of man,
alone, amongst those long past living,
night died giving birth to day.

so only in the counterfeit of death
can i be held in night's embrace.

6 comments Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Recent composition. I think i need to get back into prose, haha.

Ah!


this is the sound
this is the sound
this is the sound the raindrops go

pitter patter
spitter spatter
on my window a bitter blatter

a scritch, a scratch
a rhyme that won't match
between the spaces that raindrops flow.

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would like comments, please.

adam

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A blast from the backlog! This one's nothing much new, actually. Just fiddling with the number of stresses. And general mucking about. But anyway enjoy!

-~-

just think of me whenever you see a sigh to the sun and sky,
whenever a newborn morning's dawn takes up its wings to fly;
forget me not with every thought, and never let me die,
for morning is worth naught to me, if i am naught in your eyes.

just hold me near whenever you hear the heavens start to cry,
and if i am away, the lonesome day shall bid the rains goodbye;
until i return, let your heart's fire burn, and keep your soft eyes dry,
for raining is worth naught to me, if i am naught in your eyes.

just recall my face when the night's embrace engulfs a darkened sky,
let not night's old art strike fear in your heart, though she will surely try;
and never allow on your face a frown, and never heave a sigh,
for darkening is worth naught to me, if i am naught in your eyes.

take the sun and the rains, the night and the pains, as roads to remember me by
but never, ever, let your heart wander, and never let our love die.

0 comments Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Second in the backlog bag! enjoy.

-~-

// love is a poison

oh, fairest love! men long have sung your name,
and laud it greater than each man before-
the beauty in the winter's hellebore,
you surely do deserve eternal fame.
oh, lily-of-the-valley, poisoned white-
you have enthralled no end of worthy men
all slaves to you, still now as it was then,
so willingly, they take your aconite.
oh, passion's stem! as bloodroot wracks the soul
you plant on sufferers a nightshade's kiss-
those drown in you, who then seek hemlock's bliss;
you, meadow saffron, many lives have stole.

ah, you false sin!- pray trouble not this heart;
yet, I beseech you- never from me part.

1 comments Monday, June 05, 2006

my goodness, it's been a while. and i have this huge backlog i never got around to posting -_-;;;

but here's sonnet 20, for starters. i'll hopefully be posting one new one everyday until i clear the list.

-~-

they say that i have wondrous skill with words,
but i say they are wrong who think it so;
for lyric from a writer's pen should flow
but i, with rough axe hew mine out of stone.
for rhymes and meters, all cannot express
the fount of feeling in its flown excess,
but faintly on the readers' hearts impress
the origin of love the writer heard.

as when i sing, i do but imitate
so when i write, my words are only shades
of that which in my heart is luminate,
and all these penned are but stone statues made;

for soul is living, but my words are dead;
while words endure, such passion someday fades.

0 comments Thursday, May 18, 2006

I didn't write this. I saw it in a book sometime back and it hit me like a surprise grapple check with a size penalty. I wouldn't even call it a poem i guess, but that's all there was on the page.

Who follows with the swallows in the hollows of the sky?
It is I, it is I, it is I, it is I.



0 comments Saturday, April 22, 2006

he tired too early-
he who ran the race of rats until his poor lungs,
            his poor heart
gave out and broke apart
not that fate had been unkind to him;
no nightprowlers danced in the shadows,
nor hellhounds raved at his heels;
but he ran
            not from something,
but for something.

he tired too early-
chasing the breaths of fate,
looking for her gossamer web in the dark
clutching at thin straws of knowledge,
            sands of time;
slipped from his fingers, but he tried.

was it the scent of flowers in the breeze?
was it the saltspray of the azure seas?
something kept him running,
something.
one such as he,
already weary from the weights of time
poor in health,
            paupered in spirit
blessed and cursed with the fount of bliss

he tired, for he knew not why he ran.
perhaps the wise greek would have said
all he knew to seek for were pale forms,
shadows of wisdom, love, freedom,
            cast by a blinding sun
that same sun which scorched his gaze
and forced it to the earth

that he could never see with clarity,
and trusted in the charity of the fates
even though the cynics tongue never ceased,
told him that those were shadows of mere idols
and there would never be an end to it,
no white winged angel to bear the grail
            grant him requiem;

so he ran with burdens on his back
he, the piteous journeyman,
            the tortured traveller
seaching for the flowers of the scent,
searching for the ocean of the spray,
searching for the sunlight of the shadow;

he tired too early- he who tried to find
the heart and soul behind his aching chest;
perhaps he ran, that one day he might rest
and leave the race of mice and men behind.

4 comments Tuesday, March 28, 2006

he sat, watching the children play
-long gone was the dolent day
on wings of wax, aflight in flames,
then smashed on a shoal of shames;
left night and wind, silent sisters,
where they walked but wisps and whispers-

alone and dimmed, without a ray
upon his seat of steel, he wrote
upon his paper, his pen he smote
he sat, watching the children play

he hesitated, in silence to pray
perhaps a song to sin and plight
perhaps a dirge to dark and night
-long gone was the dolent day

his honour but a roll of names
its flight a whim of wind and whiff
its flight a step off a cliff
on wings of wax, aflight in flames,

his dreams bedight and veiled in blames
besought a storm, which wept a well
besought a star, which shook and fell
then smashed on a shoal of shames;

and heart and soul two lonesome drifters
knew not where the river sped
knew not where the moonlight led
left night and wind, silent sisters,

in his house a hall of weepers
shades of love now pale and dim
shades of friends that stood with him
where they walked but wisps and whispers-

while he dreamed of death, despair, deceit-
the children played, and watched him sit.

1 comments Saturday, March 25, 2006

They condescend to me, arrogant glares never meeting my eyes,
Glancing at the wares decorating tables, and they do not come
To buy any but whisper behind, relieving not my solitude
Hopeful, but still in an infinite wait
Waiting for shadows of those already past
And unmoving, the fading colours marking the story's end.

But ever so often, the young ones come
Budding bourgeosie smiles that disperse, somewhat, the solitude
Stemming from a fruitless knowing in a fruitless wait
The colour, laughter, fleeting moments go past
The monotony returns, perhaps never to end
And they know this, they do, it is reflected in our eyes

To sit day after day in a multicoloured solitude
A solemn stone in the crowd in a vauntless wait
Reminiscient, still living, forlorn images harvested from the past
And when the neon lights spark the sky, their dances end
So will mine, dancing and dying for the strobes that light my eyes
Glistening dully, like dead milk fish, a day that does not come

Preserved fruit, I am a window shopper, sitting down to my daily wait
Watching candy-coloured people walk past
Vibrant in their sugar-spun castles, meeting a dull, dull end
I know this, yet I devour, envy in my eyes
For mine is gone, behind the requiem that will always come
To sing upon a statue, the colours of my wares to theirs, impress upon this solitude

And yet again where and what past
Past present future tense it is all the same for the purgatory without end
In rainbows that fade to red, sun streaking eyelids and covered eyes
No relief, like Lazarus alive, it does not come
Upon a table, reclining in solitude
A statuette, never statuesque, in a never-ending wait

Who would bid me goodbye if this story should end
Walking past unnoticed, if I should no longer open my eyes
Would they break away, to reach and come from
Whence, to undo the shackles of a distant solitude
Wrenching free the years of rough plastic, this wait
Wholly new, leaving me a fragment, facets left of a long bygone past

No longer will I wait for those who do not come
Never again closing my eyes to leave me blind
To the end and beginnings I created of a past that is left behind.


Cheers!
-Bern

I wrote this two years ago, as part of my mentorship portfolio. It's about a pedlar, in Orchard, selling her wares but never buying them for herself.

2 comments

a quiet one, she -
sitting by the back shade
dancing on a daydream.

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I said of this - awaken, miss
she rose; a serpent on her breath
that thrilled through th'air on syllables
that between us died a dreamer's death

she loved the dance; the step, the gyre
she lived only to smoulder and spin
wouldst look at me I said, I said
ere she consume herself therein -
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to't, no response
but a hint of song that
whistled by

her gaze on the ceiling
she spent her life
dancing on a candle wick

2 comments Monday, March 20, 2006

The wind comes to me, caresses me, ruffles my hair, soothes my restless heart.

tonight, he rides not with Norse fury, scremaing battle.
tonight, he wails not with the Banshees, lamenting loss.

No, tonight, he walks with me, with memory, down the old garden path.
Now he raises his voice, gusts over me, rakes my teary eyes.
harsh, sweet, gusts of memory.
Now he sweeps across me with a cleansing no sleep nor shower could give.

He slows, no longer blasts across my thirsting skin.
no, he breathes now with a resigned laughter, laughs and loves.
he dances, whirls about my body,
playfully drops a dead leaf at my feet.

The sun has long since gone down, leaving me with the false glow of man-made lights; but the wind has stayed with me all this while.

No longer is he the hot air of the sin high in the sky; now, he is the breath of warm dusk, old glow spilling across that parched plain of my skin.

Old wind, he carries on him a million songs,
all I know;
I sung them with him once,
and he, tonight, finds me again with memory.

I swung with him in the heat of the morning,
I lashed with him in the gale of the storming,
And now I laugh with him at the summer's mourning.

He rustles the boughs of rememberance,
plays with a leaf as it falls.

but he, has to go soon.
And so must I;

long will I long to waltz with him again,
though each new night, the dance is ne'er the same.

0 comments Wednesday, March 08, 2006

alas, you loved too little, loved too late
when you in youth decided to grow old
and let your books to you your life dictate

regret it now! regretfully behold
no passion's roots, no roses' blooms; instead
gaunt spines of autumn, plumed in red and gold

and winter's angry gale of cold and dead;
your studious slavish sacrific intent
to sell your heart, so you might raise your head

too late to rage for years now gone and went
too late to rue, oh you disconsolate
who spent his youth, and now with spirit spent

lament then not, who rode with pride and hate-
alas, you loved too little, loved too late.

0 comments Thursday, February 23, 2006

i hear whistling -
a bird sits high and warbles.
Happiness?

-Terence.

P.s. D, your poem has a last line that seems an afterthought, a tack-on, when i think the idea was for emphasis. Perhaps you could try changing the last stanza to reflect this?

0 comments Sunday, February 19, 2006

I dreamed, i thought, i saw
you die.

You were there, through
the looking glass,
looking back, looking lost.
i saw, and then you died.

You fell, slowly,
through syrup and honey -
landing in a deep pool of milk-white manna.
I dreamed, and then you drowned.

You thrashed, frantically
fast, and terribly.
My breath caught in your throat.
I thought, and then we died.

But it was just a dream,
just a dream,

Just a dream.

0 comments Wednesday, February 15, 2006

On earth, it is that Good shall be downtrodden,
While Evil holds his head up proudly high;
And Good, with pallid clothes and count'nance sodden
Can only watch the world and offer a sigh.
Is it that Good can bear no battle arms,
And Evil breaks his back upon his boot?
But men come good- they fall by Evil's charms,
Only when another plots, he lose his foot.
No, 'tis because the hearts of men are soft
That Evil stem the righteous flood of fire;
And where one shineth not, the dark shall loft
And cause the idle hearts of Good to tire.

A pity 'tis, to hear the lesser speak
When mind is worthy, but the heart is weak.

0 comments Saturday, February 04, 2006

I was on the computer, playing a game
At half past seven, or so I swore-
Justice or crime, it was all the same,
Killing and killing and killing some more.

So I played and I played, 'till I found this guy
A crook in his castle, caught by a cop.
Weeping, he begged and he begged not to die
So I let him go free, and I heard a loud pop

And lo and behold! before I knew it
The bugger had gone and shot me in the back,
So I staggered back to that traitorous git
And gives it to him, without cutting no slack.

So he slumps to the floor and says he's sorry,
But I know in my heart he's going to die;
So I say to myself, "old chap, don't worry,
I know you've repented; good luck and goodbye."

I walk through the door that suddenly opened,
Still bleeding from that gunshot that hurt me so dear,
Even as behind me the secret stronghold burned,
I knew that my end drew steadily near.

And as I walk into the corridor,
My vision blackens and threatens to fail;
And finally fading, I slump on the door
And rest my tired arm on the handrail.

When suddenly a rectangle comes into view,
And shows me enlightenment bit by bit-
Things like "Save game?" and "Continue?",
"Load Game?" or "New Game?" and finally "Quit?"

I clicked on "Quit", as I knew it was getting late
And I had to get back to work tomorrow,
But as for my character's electronic fate
I suppose only its fellow electronics know.

But in those many moments, I felt genuine hate
And fear, and betrayal, and some bit of joy
In knowing that some false predetermined fate
Had been carried out again by another teenage boy.

Did the villain feel fear? Or was he unfeeling?
My own processor could not work out that puzzle
And I thought that my useless but ethical thinking
Was leading me down some philosophical muzzle.

Still, I ask the computer if it knows of emotions,
And it answers me with a whirr-click-beep.
So I chide myself for such foolish notions,
As, "Do robots dream of electric sheep?"

0 comments

Over-priced iPods
Making millions from many
Apple is in bloom.

0 comments Thursday, February 02, 2006

a ripple
fills
the whole pond

0 comments Saturday, January 28, 2006

another day in that same old park
stretched out upon the stone bench,
counting the stars with tearful eyes,

looking at the trees
the bare branches of winter,

wishing the night would creep a little faster,
steal his way past the curtains of dusk
and cast his cloak over sleepy sunsets

when i heard a little whistle
coming down the lonely path

there she was;

and she sang,
'i look up when i walk
so the tears won't fall,'

and went away, whistling that old song
even as the curtain drew
leaving me
a muted audience in an empty theatre
the lights dimmed to darkness.

but i was there the next day.
the stone bench stood fast
the trees whispered in the wind
the stars held their silent vigil

while i looked up at the sky,
wondering where beyond the blue
lay happiness

and i wished that dusk would tread a little slower,
wished that night would take a little longer,

so that i might catch that wandering whistle

one last time

0 comments Thursday, January 12, 2006

and i sit in the school library-
all the books around me,
all the people i can see,
but not a soul who speaks as though it were free.

a muffled murmur echoes within its walls-
words and whispers, answering silent calls
and yet within these vaunted halls
not a single soul speaks as though it were free.

a barely palpable tingling of my ears-
not silence, all alone with all my fears;
not loudness, engulfing all it hears;
just souls softly swooning, none of them free.

and i tried my best to break from that spell=
to free my comrades, ring liberty's bell
but alas, twas but a raindrop in a well;
and those souls still silently clamor to be free.

so did i join them in self-imposed slavery;
gently struggling, never to be free.

0 comments Sunday, January 08, 2006

Let's start a collaborative poem! Below is the first stanza, add on to the poem and title the posts The Golden Box.

i once spied a golden box
beside the lonely trail;
amongst the grasses' swaying locks,
rustling in the autumn dale.